Kasey's Rambles

Hello world. So sorry it’s been a few days. Life got Lifey for a few days there. Which is becoming one of my favorite ways to describe my life recently especially to family and friends. It just gets “lifey” sometimes. The hustle and bustle of everyday life can consume us so much, almost as if we are all robotic to a certain extent. I know I am. Mornings, for me, have become so routine, I feel like I’m on auto pilot every morning. Obviously you will have your little hiccup here or there, that’s a given children or no children! But I get it done every morning, well Monday through Friday. Saturday and Sunday are a crap shoot!!

Now to touch a little on the title of this entry. Something else that happens in my life is ‘My Depression’ will come in waves. For the most part I’m like this even line where everything is going well and my mood is ok, here recently though I could tell something had been off. That’s when it hit me. While walking to the store last night, “the light bulb clicked”, which if you think about it, they don’t click. You “flick” the light switch on. Ok anywho, focus Kasey. I’ve been super tired this week, more so than others. To the point where it’s very difficult to get up in the morning. Where as Normally I can hop right up and start my day. Then it clicked, work the past few weeks has been extra stressful with un needed drama, school was starting and the weather is starting to change. Don’t get me wrong, I Love Fall!!! Like obsessed with it. But it’s that darn seasonal depression shit that comes and bites me in the butt when I least expect it!!! It clicked, that’s why I’m so tired, that’s why I don’t want to get out of bed. That is 100% why I’ve been so exhausted. Seasonal depression is real and for me, after years of therapy and learning some coping mechanisms and skills to deal with my depression, it’s gotten a little bit easier, now that I know what to look out for.

I’m a huge advocate for therapy, for all ages. I’ve had nothing but positive experiences on top of very emotional experiences with all of the therapy I have endured over the years. That is probably why I am such a fa. I just feel if the right therapist is found, the possibilities can be nothing but positive and healing sometimes.

Anywho now I’m rambling. I’m absolutely exhausted and drained from work the past month really has kicked my butt. Back to school for 3 kiddos and having a sick puppy all while that’s going on. It’s just been a lot. So I ramble about any and all things especially on Fridays. I just finished a 10yr shift then came home and walked the dog and got my kiddo in bed. Work is never done lol.

Except now it is, because this mama bear is off to put her hear on her pillow!!! I may just jump right into bed, actually jump that’s how excited I am.

Till next time