Kasey's Rambles

Hello all. I won’t bore you with my typical “life’s been getting a little bit lifey” quote; aka “excuse!” I will get right to it. I’m a very busy mama, with a very hectic back-to-back schedule. At the end of most days, I don’t even have the time to think about writing some rambles. I’m so exhausted after getting our son to bed and cleaning up that when I jump into bed, I’m not moving till the morning. What’s funny is when someone asks why I haven’t been writing I will come up with 101 excuses right off the bat. Truth is if I can add this into my daily routine, it should be very easy to be consistent and write every day.

When I tell you my days are routine, I mean routine. I could do my morning routine in my sleep. Practically do ha-ha. What I’m getting at, is that if I can somehow find a time that works everyday with my hectic life, I could add an hour or even just a half hour of writing into my day’s routine. It just might actually work. Now here’s the kicker. This won’t happen overnight people. It has taken me years of lots of practice, experience, therapy etc. to be able to have such a routine-based lifestyle. See for me, I need routine, when I don’t have any sense of routine or a set schedule, my life can be even more chaotic than I ramble about…believe me.

So now that I have laid out my plan of action for starting to “try” to blog every day with all of you. Key word “blog” people. I will touch on a little bit about where my heads at this Holiday Season.

I’ll be honest I am extremely excited for Christmas and just the Holiday Season in general this year, and I’ll tell you why. If I could show you in a picture book or something what my life used to look like just a few short years ago, literally 3-4years, you all would probably be shocked. Being that most of you don’t know me or my past, which some would say is a good thing. Depends on how you look at it I say. I battled my addictions for years. I have been homeless, been to jail, jobless, all the above. Life was very dark for years and years, but God had bigger plans for me and after a while I finally started to see it and surrender. One of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. It took a lot of work. Lots of work! Work that still happens on a day-to-day basis but that work, is paying off and then some. That is why this year I am so grateful to have all the “things” that I have. I am grateful to have my family in my life. To have amazing relationships with all of the kiddos and with my hubby. These are all things I didn’t have just a few short years ago. It makes me emotional some nights when everyone is asleep, I will go out into the living room with all my twinkly lights glowing and cry happy tears. I’m doing the darn thing! My families back together! It’s just so crazy to think sometimes that this is my life now. Kind of like a “pinch me” moment. Haha. To be able to have my mom over my house so she can see all my Christmas decor. To have both girls sleep over. To have a steady job. To live in a beautiful home and safe neighborhood. (Safe as u get these days)

It truly is “A Wonderful Life.

I wasn’t sure how detailed I was going to be initially due to that first fear that still comes over me from time to time, but then I remembered people may know your name, but not your story. They may have seen and heard what you’re doing and what you have done, but not what you’ve been through.” (What’s most important is that I’m here to talk about it today.) So, take others’ opinions of you or your past with a grain of salt. At the end of the day, it’s what “YOU” think of YOURSELF that counts! So much has changed. There has been so much growth. Lots of Faith. Loss. Laughter. Literally all the above. So, this Holiday Season, no matter what stresses may come my way I’m going to choose to “live in the moment,” be present, and truly be Grateful for everything I Have in my life today. It really is a blessing that I do not want to take for granite!

Happy Holidays All!! Till next time…which is hopefully sooner rather than later!