Kasey's Rambles

I feel like this is an ongoing trend in motherhood. Heck even just in adulthood. I had plans for the day to take my son and I to the local Library so I can do some research on online business and so My son could pick out some summer reading books.

Well instead, I woke up with an awful crippling headache. The type of headache that you know isn’t going to go away easily. And on top of that this is the first week my son is no longer in summer camp. So now I feel awful and have to find ways of keeping a 6, almost 7yr old boy occupied inside all day, while I feel like crap.

Needless to say today didn’t go as planned. I tried to play off how awful I was feeling to see if my son would want to just do a snuggle day. Welp instead he wanted nothing more to go Fishing. His new fav hobby. Which I just knew I wasn’t going to be able to do. Light bothers my headaches and all I want to do is lay in bed.

Around 11ish I was able to get myself up and semi dressed. I coherced my son into wanting to go to Dunkin Donuts. Our fav coffee and donut place. Even doing that felt like running a marathon. But ladies and gentlemen, I have to give it to my son. He helped me out so much today. Barely complained and let mommy relax to the best of my ability.

But now that he is in bed and I reflect on the day I can’t help but sit here and feel awful for not doing much with our son today. The feeling of guilt rushed over me. I start to beat myself up and say what if I just took him fishing. But at the end of the day my son went to bed with a smile on his face and love in his heart for his mama.

And that is what I need to be thinking about. Not racking my brain on the what ifs. Not questioning if I’m a good mother or not. Because I know I am. I am not perfect. We’re not supposed to be. We are humans to ya know. May not seem like it all the time but we are.

So I’m going to sit here and choose to reflect on my day a different way than I normally do. I am going to be blessed my family is happy and healthy. I am going to be grateful my son didn’t throw any big tantrums today. And I’m going to be thankful that we made it through another day on this earth.

Again I’m rambling lol. Lack of no coffee today is showing. Anywho. Stay tuned for more. Plans on hitting the library tomorrow. We shall see If we make it there or not lol

Till next time…