Kasey's Rambles

The day has come and gone. The day where my 6-year-old, almost 7 year old, became a first grader. Like the title of last night’s blog, “Bittersweet,” it’s the perfect word to fit today’s mood. As we got out of the car this morning, my son was not nervous whatsoever. He was excited to get to school and find his class, meet his teacher and see all of his friends. Being able to watch him interact with all of his friends, made my whole year.

To be able to be present today and watch my son turn into a bright young man is what I am truly grateful for at the end of the night. As I’ve touched on in previous blogs, a few years back my life was very dark, miserable, depressing and all around sad. Unfortunately, my son had to endure having a mother who was not well for a few years of his young life. Now, looking back on where I was, and being able to look forward and see where I am now, and to also have “Hopes” and “dreams” is something beyond my wildest dreams. Having hopes and dreams is something I lacked for years. There was no hope in my life. There were no dreams… only nightmares.

But now it is all positive, for the most part. When negative things arise, today I choose to look on the bright side if you will. I choose to find a solution opposed to sitting there and complaining, whining, bitching about whatever. Now I take action, now I solve my problems, now I conquer each day. It feels damn good to finally have control over my life today. To be able to sit here and tell whoever is reading these blogs just a little bit about who I am, makes me feel like I have a purpose. Like there’s something that I can say in my blogs that might touch somebody. That might make somebody take a second look at their life and want to look on the bright side of things opposed to being a “negative nancy.” If I can have an impact on just one person, then this was totally worth it. Even if there isn’t an impact on anyone, the impact is on me. I look forward to coming home at night and writing down my thoughts and ideas and sharing them with the world.

I have found a new Hobby. Something I have passion about. Something that truly puts a smile on my face. Something that I am good at!!! It feels damn good.

So now it’s time to relax. My “dogs are barking,” my heads starting to throb. It’s bed time for this blogging mama. No more Rambles for the night lol.

Till next time…